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Good one… that is about the level of response I expected. Not surprised….
Seems like your kind of intimidated?
Well I am a fucking mess.
I am on life tilt.
My runbad is horrific. Im down $100k in the past 5 years. I am totally ass out.
Most of it is just bad decision making regarding money management.
As much as I want to make a post, I dunno. This is pathetic im even using my time and energy to post here because I feel like whining about it is just pathetic.
I always revert back to one time 10 years ago, a winning player told me, that the only reason I lost was because I was just a bad player, not because of the way the cards ran out.
To this day I still cant overcome the runbad. On another note, I feel like alot of people just make up their runbad situations. Its fucking poker, this is what you singed up for, an random card game.
I decided that instead of writing some well thoughout post I would just write what ever came to my mind in this whirlwind of just pathetic failure.
I am at the bottom of the barrel. My losses are more extreme because most of the money I gambled away over the past 5 years was in bitcoins…
Its absolutely pathetic, and as I sit here, I am not paying my beauty of a girlfriend attention. She thinks its weird I am typing because I barely type so vigoriously…
I am down ultimately only $100k-$200k but that could have been $100-$200 MILLION USD worth of crypto.
its so sad my girl bears the most of the brunt, and alot of the money I have ran bad with was ours or hers….
I only logged on here because I was thinking of posting and just seeing if anyone could give me any advice…. but thats just so pathetic.
so thats it, Im down I run bad, but I have to take it on the chin and just know that I am a bad player.
My runbad is so sad but maybe its my curse. I have a smoking adddition and I think it contributes to my run, as its so deep, I think my addictions throws off my playing patterns and puts me in bad “seats’ … had I no addiction I would probably have showed up earlier and got a different seat, played different.
I was a winning player at one point when I started out in college with a house of roomamtes who were online semi-pros before Black Friday…
Oneday I folded the best hand into the muck, I mucked a pocket pair which gave me a winning full house. I was so fucked up on drugs I didnt see the board had paired, giving me the winning full house. I threw my cards into the muck face up, it was all a blur. What can you do…? obviously a lot and get your life together but I just cant find my rythym, and I keep trying to force it on the felt bc I dont want to work but the more I force it the I lose…
As I play more and started to play more live card house games, I find myself playing worse as I run bad. Maybe I am just a bad player and I have to accept that possibility…
I also want to become a professional gambler, who doesnt? I am running so bad on the poker table that I have recently taken up betting on live sports…
I lose consistently when I have…50 cards in the deck giving me the win and 2 possible for the opponent win…
I also lose to 4 outers regularly
I regularly lose my AK to fish’s AQ
I regularly lose pots to lower pocket pairs turning or rivering trips
Now days that it will put me on such tilt I will play hands like QJ and Q10 on my raised button, flop top two, and lose to a set of Jacks or set of Queens or other set because I shouldnt be playing.
I consistently get it all in
Im the type of player that when I 3bet or 4 bet my AK, players call with rags just for the chance to stack me and usually manage to outflop me once I am pot committed…(This is all most likely contributed to my bad play)
But I know that at some point I will over come all this if I just find a stable life outside of poker. That is where I am putting in the most work. Management of game selections and management of bankroll seems to matter more than the cards.
I also play too small of a game because I am now so underrolled, and its biting me in the ass because people dont value $100 or $200 anymore, they just put in in the pot with anything and its like video poker. Maybe if I had the roll to get back on the 5/5 or 5/10 game, I could find my soul, but if everyone knows im scared money Id never succede an yways.
What can you do… Hopefully someone can relate.. wow variance can hurt.
